Bee Curious...

I have had a few experiences in my life where I feel the universe is sending me a message loud and clear.

I think the messages are subtle to begin with. Something may start to feel like it is very hard work or things just aren't flowing. Maybe you need a holiday? Take a break, come back and it still feels hard.

Life doesn't have to be hard. We seem to put ourselves through unnecessary suffering to prove to ourselves that we can make it, we can endure. Who are we trying to prove this too?

I do this all the time! I'm a shocker for this. One reason I find it so hard to rest, take a break. I feel the need for self-punishment and to be more discipline. Weakness and vulnerability cannot be shown ever.

Anyway, back to messages...I had a big message sent to me a few years back as I wasn't listening. Cancer. That got my attention.

I'm not going to harp on about my cancer story, but it was a catalyst, a circuit breaker to look at what I was doing, and where I was and was any of this sustainable or good for me.

I did make a lot of changes when I was done fighting the cancer. A tree change, lots of space and nature around me, a quieter town.

But it's easy to fall into old habits. Work, study, trying to excel in my job, trying to be a great mum to all my children, trying to keep the house clean, trying many different groups, sports, hobbies to have a full and productive life. 

I'm a bit better at listening to those messages coming through, although still a bit slow on the uptake. A bee sting causing anaphylaxis which meant I had to give up bee keeping. The irony of the universe is hilarious at times. I was literally booked into to attend beekeeping course the next day. Apparently not!

That was a tough message to hear. I love bees. For me, bees are connection between us, the sun, our environment, flowers, trees. I feel I have worked out this message now. It was saying don't try and keep or manage us, work alongside us to create a thriving safe environment for us.

I digress and I promise I'm not crazy. Well maybe a little..

So other messages are appearing and guiding me to this, what I am doing now. 

Nature has always been there and always will be there. It is in us, around us, we are nature. Totally makes sense to me. This is why we feel better after taking a walk, or being in a forest, gardening. we are reconnecting with ourselves.

This is where I want to be. It's been here all along. I just need to trust and be open and drift along with the tide. 

It's hard though. Reality calls in the form of needing regular income, responsibilities to family and work. It can feel like a constant battle. 

But if you let go and trusted everything would be alright, where would you end up...

Bee curious 🐝🐝🏵️☀️